33 weeks preggo...

So today I am 33 weeks preggo.... I dont even know what to think about that. Ever since I started going to the OB every 2 weeks I have started having the worst anxiety about my delivery. Since nothing fun or exciting has been going on at these appts I havent asked Michael to go with me but I think he needs to start going just to hold me up when I start getting weak at my knees. I am usually fine until I pull into the parking lot and that's when I break out in a cold sweat. But I take a few deep breaths and head in. Once I get all signed in and I am sitting in the waiting room I start feeling like I could A.)throw up, B.) pass out, C.) take a big poo, or D.) all of the above. I usually try to get there within minutes of my appt in hopes to minimize my wait which means less anxiety. I sit there trying not to think about an 8.5 lb (a guesstimate from my OB) baby ripping me open in one way or another. But its all I can do to hold back my tears and not get up and run screaming out of that place.

I am soooo excited to meet my little guy and thats usually what I try to stay busy focusing on. But its when I slow down for 2 seconds that I freak the eff out. It also doesnt help that strangers make comments on how big my belly is on a daily basis. Today I even started lying about my due date to strangers. I say "next month" which may very well happen but it would be the very last days of "next month" when these strangers are thinking like a few weeks from now. I just get tired of the look people give me when I say December. It seems so far away but its definitely not.

**Dr. Update**- Avery's heart was going strong at 142 and she estimates him at being 4.5 lbs, 17 inches already. I gained more weight (shocker I know...haha) but the Dr said I am right on track. I measured right on time so BOOYA to all those nosey strangers. We start our birthing class this Sunday. I am nervous/excited about it! Oh and I have to remember to schedule appts so I can meet with the Dr's that I dont know in my Dr's practice. Since I am delivering vaginally I could possibly have someone other than my Dr. deliver Avery. I am fine with that though. I know 2 of the Dr's really good and then between my mom and sisters I know what to expect from the other Dr's as well. They are all great so it doesnt really worry me too much.

I will post a pic of my belly later tonight. Oh and I will post a nursery update as well.